Lots of activity as of late - one of those moments in time that feel like you're in a big dust storm and you can't really make anything out; you know the dust will settle soon, but you have no idea when. I also realize that a dust storm creates a "refresh" and brings in new energy, ideas and possibilities. Transitioning back from my trip to Peru was tough - I was full of inspirations and new ideas for how I wanted to be in the world and what really mattered for a happy, fulfilled life; yet felt stuck by the reality that there was "unfinished business" in my current life that needed to get taken care of before I could really throw myself out there freely. Travel and family are two priorities that have been life-long passions, yet have been brushed aside for other objectives (career, school, financial stability) over the last few years. I am challenging the belief that in order to achieve my career and educational goals - I will have to sacrifice either of those two.
Recently I have come to realize that I am at an inflection point - similar to ones I have been through at various times in my life - like at 25 when you realize you're no longer 21 and the people and lifestyle you have surrounded yourself with are no longer satisfying you or making you better. When I started at Emergent Solutions, I was challenged to grow in ways I could never have imagined. I have evolved personally and professionally in exponential ways - and I know that I am truly blessed. This inflection point feels like "growing pains" - like there are some remaining layers of old skin that need to be sloughed off for me to freely step into the next chapter of my life. These layers are in the form of negative self-limiting beliefs, self destructive/non-constructive habits, relationships that are not enhancing my best qualities, and general FEAR.
I am in "search" mode - reaching out for resources, answers, and examples of people and organizations that are doing the sorts of work and living the lifestyle I have always dreamed of. I believe that when you put it out in the universe that you need some help - you better be ready to start picking up on the signs, clues, and resources that will start presenting themselves to you. The universe has been telling me to FOCUS and that word has come up for me a lot lately - around going to school, figuring out what my goals are, and deciding what it is I really want to manifest - so that I can focus all of my energy to that and not let it get wasted and dispersed to other unimportant activities or people. I realized that one of my weaknesses is my negative self talk. I have done a lot of personal growth and development, and I believe a disciplined mind is capable of so much. I started working with a hypnotherapist and she has been great - it has been a refreshing change from the standard therapy I had gone through a year ago, and is helping me realize a lot of the root causes for some of my behavior and beliefs, and reframing past negative experiences so that I can heal and move on from them. I felt like I was in a rut - and while it is not an immediate/quick fix - it is helping me slowly but surely start to see what I need to do to get out of it.
I told myself that I wanted to be a Yoga instructor - but I kept talking about it like it was some far off goal that I was not "ready" for. So I decided to challenge that belief and applied for Yoga Kula's Anusara Immersion Program and lo and behold - I was accepted ;-) This is a 108 hour program that is essentially the first Phase towards achieving an Anusara Yoga teacher certification - and will undoubtedly be a life changing experience. I can't begin to express how excited I am to see the growth in my yoga practice, my spirituality, my self confidence, and to be surrounded by such beautiful, evolved and radiant people. This is a huge learning edge for me - a little scary, but I know it will be amazing. My goal is to be certified by this time next year - so that I can start taking groups on yoga retreats to Cusco and other amazing places. Yoga has opened the door to so much healing and enlightenment and I can't wait to be able to share that gift with others...and getting paid to do that and travel would be like icing on the cake ;-)
I have also recently been introduced to The Silva Method - which I am super excited to learn more about. I'm doing a 9-Day online training called "TheUnlimited You" which works with their fundamental principals for how to use Meditation, Visualisation and positive affirmations to bring about positive change in your life. Cool stuff.
Last but not least - I was sent an email today titled "FinerMinds - Welcome to the first day of your new childhood". Intrigued, I opened it, and followed the link to the website of an organization called MindValley. Let's just say that as I browsed around the site and watched a couple of videos - it became clear that it was no coincidence this came across my path at precisely this time. Check out the video below and you'll see what I mean: