I went, I saw, I conquered ;-) The 1st annual Wanderlust Festival lived up to my wildest expectations and then some...I have been on a cloud since returning last Monday, so I have yet to post up my pics - but stay tuned. In the meantime, here are a couple of cool links to give you a sense of what you missed:
http://www.wanderlustfestival.com
Sunday, August 2, 2009
Thursday, June 25, 2009
A Piece of my Childhood Died Today...
Michael Jackson is dead. So sudden, and so wierd - shouldn't really surprise any one I guess...yet I am immensely sad and shocked right now. Just like everyone else, I had become jaded and creeped out by him towards the end. But I think I had separated him into two different people. The Michael of recent years was not the same Michael I grew up worshipping and transfixed by in the 80's and 90's. The one who gave the world so much AMAZING music, paradigm-shifting performances, inspiration, and genuine love. The Philanthropist and soft-spoken activist who transfixed everyone - it didn't matter who you were - with his one-of-a-kind talent. He was a truly gifted performer...often imitated but never equaled.
There's a part of me that always felt like I "knew" him somehow. When I was a kid I swore we were destined to meet one day. Sounds silly maybe, but aside from being the most famous man on earth, there was also the fact that Neverland Ranch was 5 miles away from my house my entire childhood. He was my neighbor ;-) I remember legends of his brief appearances in downtown Solvang and how I would dream of someday seeing him in person. When my mom told me he had come into her store, I hyperventilated at the mere thought! I think there's also something about celebrities from your youth - it affects you so much more when they pass on...something about the innocence of childhood, that we just appreciate them and their talents in a raw and honest way. He is part of so many beautiful memories, and his songs are more than just music - they are like a soundtrack of an entire generation. There was also an intuitive knowing that he was such a sad, lonely, haunted, and pained soul. How could any one be "normal" living such an abnormal life?? He was put to work at age 4, and mentally, emotionally and physically abused by his father. It breaks my heart to see any one who is not allowed a childhood. I am saddened by the dispicable comments I keep reading on the internet about him - a clue into how truly ugly human beings can be. I can only get a sense of the ugliness in people he must have seen and felt in his lifetime. I cry thinking that humanity was his biggest abuser of all. No one will ever know what being Michael Jackson was like except for Michael Jackson, and I just feel immensely sorry for him, and for those closest to him.
Aside from all of that - the truth is that Michael Jackson was a unique and gifted human being like we have rarely seen before. Never will be another like him. Say what you will about his personal life, the man touched people and hit nerves that only he could. He inspired any one who ever saw him perform. The reaction to his death is unprecedented - I am shocked and surprised at the intensity of my own. He was an icon that touched so many souls in a profound way. Today we are all feeling the impact of his loss - even the ones that had forgotten how much they cared. I am mourning his death, but I think I'm also mourning part of that innocent era that I so fondly remember growing up. When symbols of a generation pass on - it strikes a painful chord. I miss the 80's sometimes, and I freak out when I think they were 20+ years ago...seems surreal. Events like this make me feel like I don't fit into this world today. A world without Micheal Jackson seems strange; even stranger than his overly-destructed nose and ghostly white skin of latter years.
I choose to continue remembering the Michael I fell in love with as a child. Sitting here watching his videos and smiling, I remember him at the peak of his fame - before the drama and cruel speculations. I remember when he was speaking out about causes ahead of his time and making positive change in the world before it was a P.R. move. I will always remember his sweet face that brought so much happiness to people as a member of the Jackson 5, feeling a tug at my heart as he showed us how much hunger was out there in the world, and grooving to his timeless songs at every moment of celebration throughout my entire life - which I have no doubt I will continue to do ;-)
A great and talented enetertainer died today, and took with him a piece of my childhood. Rest in Peace Michael, may you find some at last...
Some of my Favorite Michael Jackson Songs:
Man In the Mirror
Don't Stop Til You Get Enough
Thriller
Another Part of Me
Liberian Girl
Working Day & Night
P.Y.T.
There's a part of me that always felt like I "knew" him somehow. When I was a kid I swore we were destined to meet one day. Sounds silly maybe, but aside from being the most famous man on earth, there was also the fact that Neverland Ranch was 5 miles away from my house my entire childhood. He was my neighbor ;-) I remember legends of his brief appearances in downtown Solvang and how I would dream of someday seeing him in person. When my mom told me he had come into her store, I hyperventilated at the mere thought! I think there's also something about celebrities from your youth - it affects you so much more when they pass on...something about the innocence of childhood, that we just appreciate them and their talents in a raw and honest way. He is part of so many beautiful memories, and his songs are more than just music - they are like a soundtrack of an entire generation. There was also an intuitive knowing that he was such a sad, lonely, haunted, and pained soul. How could any one be "normal" living such an abnormal life?? He was put to work at age 4, and mentally, emotionally and physically abused by his father. It breaks my heart to see any one who is not allowed a childhood. I am saddened by the dispicable comments I keep reading on the internet about him - a clue into how truly ugly human beings can be. I can only get a sense of the ugliness in people he must have seen and felt in his lifetime. I cry thinking that humanity was his biggest abuser of all. No one will ever know what being Michael Jackson was like except for Michael Jackson, and I just feel immensely sorry for him, and for those closest to him.
Aside from all of that - the truth is that Michael Jackson was a unique and gifted human being like we have rarely seen before. Never will be another like him. Say what you will about his personal life, the man touched people and hit nerves that only he could. He inspired any one who ever saw him perform. The reaction to his death is unprecedented - I am shocked and surprised at the intensity of my own. He was an icon that touched so many souls in a profound way. Today we are all feeling the impact of his loss - even the ones that had forgotten how much they cared. I am mourning his death, but I think I'm also mourning part of that innocent era that I so fondly remember growing up. When symbols of a generation pass on - it strikes a painful chord. I miss the 80's sometimes, and I freak out when I think they were 20+ years ago...seems surreal. Events like this make me feel like I don't fit into this world today. A world without Micheal Jackson seems strange; even stranger than his overly-destructed nose and ghostly white skin of latter years.
I choose to continue remembering the Michael I fell in love with as a child. Sitting here watching his videos and smiling, I remember him at the peak of his fame - before the drama and cruel speculations. I remember when he was speaking out about causes ahead of his time and making positive change in the world before it was a P.R. move. I will always remember his sweet face that brought so much happiness to people as a member of the Jackson 5, feeling a tug at my heart as he showed us how much hunger was out there in the world, and grooving to his timeless songs at every moment of celebration throughout my entire life - which I have no doubt I will continue to do ;-)
A great and talented enetertainer died today, and took with him a piece of my childhood. Rest in Peace Michael, may you find some at last...
Some of my Favorite Michael Jackson Songs:
Man In the Mirror
Don't Stop Til You Get Enough
Thriller
Another Part of Me
Liberian Girl
Working Day & Night
P.Y.T.
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
I am an American Woman Now!!! ;-)
Today, at the age of 29, after almost 28 years in the United States, I finally became an American Citizen. Am I a procrastinator or what??? ;-p It's a little anti-climactic, but gratifying and exciting just the same. I'm very proud of myself actually - it hasn't been an easy road (for those who know the drama I've been through) but I didn't let it stop me! I had 3 main goals that I set for myself for the year when I got back from Peru - and now I can check this one off the list!But most importantly, I will sleep soundly knowing I am finally free from the threat of La MIGRA!!! ;-) Ay Carajo!!!
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Manifesting
Lots of activity as of late - one of those moments in time that feel like you're in a big dust storm and you can't really make anything out; you know the dust will settle soon, but you have no idea when. I also realize that a dust storm creates a "refresh" and brings in new energy, ideas and possibilities. Transitioning back from my trip to Peru was tough - I was full of inspirations and new ideas for how I wanted to be in the world and what really mattered for a happy, fulfilled life; yet felt stuck by the reality that there was "unfinished business" in my current life that needed to get taken care of before I could really throw myself out there freely. Travel and family are two priorities that have been life-long passions, yet have been brushed aside for other objectives (career, school, financial stability) over the last few years. I am challenging the belief that in order to achieve my career and educational goals - I will have to sacrifice either of those two.
Recently I have come to realize that I am at an inflection point - similar to ones I have been through at various times in my life - like at 25 when you realize you're no longer 21 and the people and lifestyle you have surrounded yourself with are no longer satisfying you or making you better. When I started at Emergent Solutions, I was challenged to grow in ways I could never have imagined. I have evolved personally and professionally in exponential ways - and I know that I am truly blessed. This inflection point feels like "growing pains" - like there are some remaining layers of old skin that need to be sloughed off for me to freely step into the next chapter of my life. These layers are in the form of negative self-limiting beliefs, self destructive/non-constructive habits, relationships that are not enhancing my best qualities, and general FEAR.
I am in "search" mode - reaching out for resources, answers, and examples of people and organizations that are doing the sorts of work and living the lifestyle I have always dreamed of. I believe that when you put it out in the universe that you need some help - you better be ready to start picking up on the signs, clues, and resources that will start presenting themselves to you. The universe has been telling me to FOCUS and that word has come up for me a lot lately - around going to school, figuring out what my goals are, and deciding what it is I really want to manifest - so that I can focus all of my energy to that and not let it get wasted and dispersed to other unimportant activities or people. I realized that one of my weaknesses is my negative self talk. I have done a lot of personal growth and development, and I believe a disciplined mind is capable of so much. I started working with a hypnotherapist and she has been great - it has been a refreshing change from the standard therapy I had gone through a year ago, and is helping me realize a lot of the root causes for some of my behavior and beliefs, and reframing past negative experiences so that I can heal and move on from them. I felt like I was in a rut - and while it is not an immediate/quick fix - it is helping me slowly but surely start to see what I need to do to get out of it.
I told myself that I wanted to be a Yoga instructor - but I kept talking about it like it was some far off goal that I was not "ready" for. So I decided to challenge that belief and applied for Yoga Kula's Anusara Immersion Program and lo and behold - I was accepted ;-) This is a 108 hour program that is essentially the first Phase towards achieving an Anusara Yoga teacher certification - and will undoubtedly be a life changing experience. I can't begin to express how excited I am to see the growth in my yoga practice, my spirituality, my self confidence, and to be surrounded by such beautiful, evolved and radiant people. This is a huge learning edge for me - a little scary, but I know it will be amazing. My goal is to be certified by this time next year - so that I can start taking groups on yoga retreats to Cusco and other amazing places. Yoga has opened the door to so much healing and enlightenment and I can't wait to be able to share that gift with others...and getting paid to do that and travel would be like icing on the cake ;-)
I have also recently been introduced to The Silva Method - which I am super excited to learn more about. I'm doing a 9-Day online training called "TheUnlimited You" which works with their fundamental principals for how to use Meditation, Visualisation and positive affirmations to bring about positive change in your life. Cool stuff.
Last but not least - I was sent an email today titled "FinerMinds - Welcome to the first day of your new childhood". Intrigued, I opened it, and followed the link to the website of an organization called MindValley. Let's just say that as I browsed around the site and watched a couple of videos - it became clear that it was no coincidence this came across my path at precisely this time. Check out the video below and you'll see what I mean:
Recently I have come to realize that I am at an inflection point - similar to ones I have been through at various times in my life - like at 25 when you realize you're no longer 21 and the people and lifestyle you have surrounded yourself with are no longer satisfying you or making you better. When I started at Emergent Solutions, I was challenged to grow in ways I could never have imagined. I have evolved personally and professionally in exponential ways - and I know that I am truly blessed. This inflection point feels like "growing pains" - like there are some remaining layers of old skin that need to be sloughed off for me to freely step into the next chapter of my life. These layers are in the form of negative self-limiting beliefs, self destructive/non-constructive habits, relationships that are not enhancing my best qualities, and general FEAR.
I am in "search" mode - reaching out for resources, answers, and examples of people and organizations that are doing the sorts of work and living the lifestyle I have always dreamed of. I believe that when you put it out in the universe that you need some help - you better be ready to start picking up on the signs, clues, and resources that will start presenting themselves to you. The universe has been telling me to FOCUS and that word has come up for me a lot lately - around going to school, figuring out what my goals are, and deciding what it is I really want to manifest - so that I can focus all of my energy to that and not let it get wasted and dispersed to other unimportant activities or people. I realized that one of my weaknesses is my negative self talk. I have done a lot of personal growth and development, and I believe a disciplined mind is capable of so much. I started working with a hypnotherapist and she has been great - it has been a refreshing change from the standard therapy I had gone through a year ago, and is helping me realize a lot of the root causes for some of my behavior and beliefs, and reframing past negative experiences so that I can heal and move on from them. I felt like I was in a rut - and while it is not an immediate/quick fix - it is helping me slowly but surely start to see what I need to do to get out of it.
I told myself that I wanted to be a Yoga instructor - but I kept talking about it like it was some far off goal that I was not "ready" for. So I decided to challenge that belief and applied for Yoga Kula's Anusara Immersion Program and lo and behold - I was accepted ;-) This is a 108 hour program that is essentially the first Phase towards achieving an Anusara Yoga teacher certification - and will undoubtedly be a life changing experience. I can't begin to express how excited I am to see the growth in my yoga practice, my spirituality, my self confidence, and to be surrounded by such beautiful, evolved and radiant people. This is a huge learning edge for me - a little scary, but I know it will be amazing. My goal is to be certified by this time next year - so that I can start taking groups on yoga retreats to Cusco and other amazing places. Yoga has opened the door to so much healing and enlightenment and I can't wait to be able to share that gift with others...and getting paid to do that and travel would be like icing on the cake ;-)
I have also recently been introduced to The Silva Method - which I am super excited to learn more about. I'm doing a 9-Day online training called "TheUnlimited You" which works with their fundamental principals for how to use Meditation, Visualisation and positive affirmations to bring about positive change in your life. Cool stuff.
Last but not least - I was sent an email today titled "FinerMinds - Welcome to the first day of your new childhood". Intrigued, I opened it, and followed the link to the website of an organization called MindValley. Let's just say that as I browsed around the site and watched a couple of videos - it became clear that it was no coincidence this came across my path at precisely this time. Check out the video below and you'll see what I mean:
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
This post is incredibly after-the-fact, however, I feel I still need to post something! I was in Peru - the land of my birth - from 12/15/08 - 1/10/09 for the first time in 12 years. I was able to fit in so much, yet still had so much left to do... No stress though - only more reason to go back as soon as possible. Peru is a magical country, and it was amazing to get to connect with my true peeps, and with family I hadn't seen in far too long. Cusco, the Sacred Valley, and Machu Picchu were magical - beyond words. I have never felt so human, so alive, and so connected to everything...
I created a separate travelblog to share my experience and pictures from my nearly month long trip to Peru with family, friends and any one else who may be interested for any reason somewhere down the road. I decided to use Travelpod since their blogging tools are specific to traveling and I liked the format. The process of putting the blog together was great - as a diary and to help me try to process all that I experienced; which has been life changing on so many levels.
I put it together once I returned, because to be honest, there was no way I was going to rob myself of one minute of being there, being fully present and soaking in the country and my family and friends by stressing over keeping up with a Blog. So, I posted it up retroactively and that is ok. ;-) Hope you all enjoy... xo
http://www.travelpod.com/members/peru_gringa
I also posted up just the pics on Picasa:
Cusco Pics:
http://picasaweb.google.com/claudiamiro/CuscoSacredValleyMachuPicchu
Lima Pics:
http://picasaweb.google.com/claudiamiro/LimaHolidays08
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